It’s just a game. We all know that. A fun, elaborate game. Of course, since we all have to interact with each other, it’s highly improvised. Sometimes, it’s not even entirely a game. Anyway, I know things are getting fairly complex on my blog, and I’m sure a lot of you are wondering just how much of this is made up. I’m going to just come out and admit what all is real, and what’s faked.
I’m going to say first of all that pretty much everything going on that’s not me giving information falls into one of three categories: true, highly exaggerated, or flat-out lie. Let’s start with my original plans. I’ve been pretty adamant from the beginning of my blog that the Slender Man is not real. That was forshadowing. My original intentions were to make it an informative blog, and then eventually move to the point where I go crazy. The plan was to make it look like I was just going insane, and that the Slender Man wasn’t involved, but then finish with a vlog where the Slender Man actually does appear in the background right before I submit it. Those were my original plans. Now, for what was real.
My roommate really did get a bad cough, and I did catch it from him. That’s something that just happens, though. Especially in fall/winter where I live. In “Slendervlog 3,” the entire conversation I have with my roommate? He didn’t know about that, so everything he says is genuine. I was acting, to an extent. Then again, I was also acting in character, too, so I suppose the entire conversation was real. The cough I have in the video? That was real. While it wasn’t stifled, it wasn’t forced either. The distortion at the end of the video? That’s just because of my webcam/microphone’s crappy quality. The comments about my dog freaking out are also true, although it’s almost certain that he was just feeling territorial or something upset him.
The fear and paranoia were highly exaggerated. When I went “insane” there for a bit? I didn’t really go insane. While I probably was a bit on edge, it took a backseat to day-to-day life. I was really paranoid for a while after seeing Marble Hornets, and I literally could not sleep the night after reading Just Another Fool. My friends commented on how I seemed breathless when I opened the door for them (they had knocked on it while I was reading Dreams in Darkness with the lights off). But when I started going off the deep end and ranting? Things weren’t that bad at all. They were a deliberate manufacturing of insanity. The all-caps post where I’m laughing? Pretty much all faked, but I really hope it freaked out a few people. I personally thought that a post full of genuinely funny things undermined by an obvious insanity/desperation would be chilling.
And now for the flat-out lies. That cameraphone video? The one where I thought I saw Slendy staring in my third-floor window? All lies. I never saw him or even thought I saw him. And the flash drive? Originally planned to be a flat-out lie. It ended up as a cross between that and an embellishment. seeker never found out my address, but he found out my e-mail. Which doesn’t surprise me at all, really, since it’s not that hard to find. I was a bit freaked out, but I thought “eh, I can use this” and incorporated it into my original plan (reeeeeeeeally dumb move, I know). Of course, I’m regretting the fact that I did, because it comes across as a TribeTwelve ripoff. For the record, I thought that up before his video. He just got to use it first, which means that I’m ripping him off by going ahead with it. Anyway, I might post some videos with my original plans yet, just for fun.
Speaking of seeker, I’m sure you’re all wondering why I haven’t mentioned how much of that is real. I wanted to save it for now because the situation is a bit…different. I don’t know how much of it is real myself. I know you’re all thinking that either seeker or SeekerX is an alt of mine. Neither one is. Here’s what’s going on here:
I got that email from seeker with the video, and originally thought he was a gamejacker. However, he was still a gamejacker who knew how to edit videos, a skill that I (obviously, if you’ve seen my videos) lack. I decided to run with it. However, all these coincidences started popping up, all somehow pointing to Broeckchen. Broeckchen’s the only one who could have planned that, but I’ve been talking to her for a while, and I trust that she isn’t lying and that she would have told me if she was seeker.
SeekerX is also tricky. I’m sure you think that I know all his riddles and whatnot. I don’t. I really don’t. He’s not my alt. If you’re going by IPs, Broeckchen, seeker, SeekerX, and I are all completely different people. I know it’s possible to get around that, but that’s some major dedication and a ton of overthinking. While I don’t think that seeker and SeekerX are the same person, I think that, in light of recent events, they might be working together. Either that, or SeekerX has actually hacked seeker’s blog and added himself to it. That would explain a lot, actually…like how SeekerX got J’s email. I don’t know if Blogspot does this, but on WordPress, I’ve got the e-mails of everyone who posts on my blog. I know that J posted on seeker’s. If they’re working together (or if SeekerX has 1337 h4x0r sk177z), that’d explain how SeekerX knows it.
So that’s the story behind what was happening and what is happening. Hope this clears a few things up. Go ahead and ask if you’ve got further questions. I’ll answer the best that I can.
Anyway, I’m sure some of you want to know how my Solstice went. It was nothing special, really. I would have loved to stay up and watch the eclipse (1:30 AM my time), but it was too foggy/cloudy to see the moon anyway. And before you go all “o noes!! fog!1! teh creepiez!” just let me point out that it was due to melting snow. It was a bit of a bummer, though.
Anyway, only one thing that was kind of strange happened. You guys remember that token I made, right? Well, even though I still think of this all as a game, I still wear it constantly, as a kind of placebo, or possibly even a tulpa. The only times I take it off are sometimes when I’m running, and when I’m sleeping. Anyway, last night, I woke up at one point in complete darkness. I couldn’t see anything, and I was probably half-asleep at the time, but I felt this sort of fear. It didn’t feel like someone was in my room, but more like someone was watching me or someone was near. One guess as to who my mind jumped to. Anyway, for some reason, I reached for my token, but it was like I was paralyzed. Have you ever had your hands fall asleep so badly to the point where they feel like they’re not a part of your body, and you have no control over them? There have been times where I’ve tried to turn of my alarm at college, but couldn’t, because I couldn’t grasp onto the ladder to climb down from my bunk. Well, it was kind of like that, only all over my whole body. Just this paralyzingly cold tingling feeling. I’ve never had that happen before. Anyway, I managed to reach out to the token, and I could feel it at my fingertips, but I couldn’t pick it up. The fear just kept growing stronger and stronger. And then, somehow, I managed to grab it and pull it towards me. Not immediately, but very shortly after, the paralyzing tingling started subsiding, and I was filled with enough relief to allow me to fall asleep again almost immediately. Kinda weird, huh? Broeckchen and I talked, and we’ve decided that there’s probably nothing supernatural about it, but it still makes a nice story.
Well, there’s a new Marble Hornets coming soon, so like usual, I’ll provide an analysis. That’s what the next blog post will be.